Taste of a Memory

by Shelley Logan

Dad’s Crepes*
1⁄2 c. sifted flour
1⁄2 t. salt
1 c. milk (or as Dad called it, “moo juice”)
4 eggs
3 T. melted butter, slightly cooled

Combine flour, salt, and 1⁄2 cup of milk
Beat until smooth
Add remaining milk, butter and eggs4
Mix again
Let rest at least one hour
Try to remember dad’s voice or his laugh
Cure crepe pan with 1 T. oil
Place over medium heat for 2-3 minutes
Remove excess oil with a paper towel
Add just enough batter to cover the entire pan, pouring
excess back into the bowl
Return pan to stove for 15-30 seconds or until crepe is
fully cooked
Tip pan sideways, crepe should fall onto plate
Wish dad were still alive to make these
Stack or roll finished crepes
Serve with melted butter, powdered sugar, and lemon
juice for the perfect combination of sweet and sour

*If you ever attempt to make these, know they’ll never be
the same as his

Notes

  1. Try to filter out your grown-up understanding of alcoholism
    that sours memories of your fun-loving dad
  2. Like your relationship with mom after she said you lost the
    wrong parent (because you put him on a pedestal)
  3. Remember Dad taking one look at your bedhead and teasing,
    “Did you comb your hair with an egg beater?”
  4. As you discard the eggshells, consider how carefully you and
    mom tread around each other, still
  5. No matter how long you wait, you’ll never not miss him
  6. Wish it were that easy to cure a grieving heart
  7. Containing it, like grief when it overwhelms you
  8. It’s okay that you still think he hung the moon because you
    were a child and he was your hero, however imperfect a
    human he may have been
  9. Understand that your mother’s pain is not the same as yours
    and you’re allowed to have good memories of your dad
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